Depression and Bipolar Cycles
I feel I’m in a valuable position with this subject as I’ve experienced both depression and bipolar cycles.
In the late 1990s, I had a breakdown. It wasn’t pleasant; in fact it was quite frightening at times. I even wondered at points if I was going mad. Suddenly, it seemed that I couldn’t even cope with the simplest of things and I had enormous fears for the future.
I embarked on a rather haphazard programme of holistic treatment, consisting of short bouts of counselling and irregular homeopathy sessions. Both helped enormously but, at the time, I didn’t really understand what was going on and therefore how to best tackle it.
As I continued with my healing journey, I learnt more and more about emotional health and gradually understood why I was suffering the way I was. It was during this time that I decided to train as a holistic practitioner in order to be able to help others with the kind of journeys that I’d been through.
There are many reasons behind depression and bipolar cycles. These include physical, nutritional and, of course, emotional. I work mainly with the emotional, although I can also treat on the physical and nutritional levels.
In my experience, depression is a state that is reached when we reach rock bottom. But unlike grief of extreme stress, there is often no fight left in us. The state can be accompanied by a feeling of despair. Emotions can be said to have a vibration. The more pleasant ones vibrate higher than the less pleasant. Depression can be said to be the lowest.
I’ve also found that depression can happen when we lose a connection with who we really are. This can happen for many reasons: Past trauma – which we have been unable to resolve and therefore have buried deep within our emotional closets can be one. We may have grown up learning to be a certain way that was incongruous to who we really are. False identity – growing up believing we need to be a certain way and so not really being in our truth is another. And not feeling we have a choice or control in our lives and feel powerless to change is a third. Eventually we lose sight of the initial cause and are just left with the emotion of depression.
A breakdown happens when, in this state, we drop all out juggling balls. Either we’ve been holding things together too long or external circumstances force a change. Breakdowns can be very unpleasant and scary, but ultimately they can be catalysts for positive change.
Depression can be hard to break out of because we often don’t really know why we’ve become depressed. The reasons that present themselves are often symptoms rather than the cause. I remember I could run off a whole list of things that were wrong with my life when I was in a depressed state, but none of them seemed a problem when I was feeling OK. It can also be quite frightening because the state is irrational; such is the nature of emotions.
If we’ve reached depression, the first thing to note is that something needs to change. Our bodies continually nudge us to be true to ourselves, so when we go off our path, we start to lose the joy and happiness we all deserve. Maybe we’ve ignored the small nudges. Maybe we weren’t brave enough to make changes then.
Bipolar is a bit more complex. As well as the depressed lows, the person also has corresponding highs – a bit like a set of scales. There will be emotional baggage behind this; the highs are only so seductive if we somehow want to escape our reality, or if we feel we need to escape our unresolved baggage trying to resurface. Resisting the highs – noticing when you’re starting to get high can be helpful in redressing the balance – the lows often come as a crash after a high.
It is often very difficult to resolve both depression and bipolar cycles without help. We see the world through a filter of our emotional state, so our perspective changes according to how we feel. Therefore it’s very difficult to get awareness from within these states. Things become murky and confused and we can end up going round in circles trying to understand what’s really going on.
I discovered Kinesiology, which helped me loads in my recovery. Kinesiology is amazing for identifying the causes of our emotional challenges and then clearing them away. I’ve been doing this work for 8 years now and I’m still awed by the results my clients get. In a session, we can identify the underlying patterns and work toward resolving them in a gentle way which has powerful results. Clients normally start to see changes quite quickly, although I can never say how long the whole treatment will take.
So if you are suffering and wish to turn things around, please get in touch.